Well well well... who would have thought that i would be here today writing about the fact that i ACTUALLY finished high school... 13 years of schooling and education and I'm finally done. I am officially a non-contributing member of society. I don't have a job or any money and I am not yet receiving a higher education!
What on earth do I do? I'm sure this is a common feeling amongst people who are non-contributing members of society, but I just feel so fundamentally purposeless. After the last few years of non-stop study I've almost forgotten how to relax (irrespective of the 14 day cruise I took with my grandmother, in which I basically metamorphosised into an elderly women). Even when I did 'nothing' to try and relax, my brain would betray me and direct a full blown cinematic motion picture detailing all the things i should be doing instead of watching "One Direction Cute and Funny Moments 2012" on my phone in the dark.
On top off my ongoing existential crisis, I am currently experiencing a near fatalistic and highly contagious bout of post-traumatic HSC disorder. I can no longer walk through Coles and casually recognise a song from the Billy Elliot soundtrack. I most definitely cannot resist blurting out facts about Roman history at a perfectly mellow family dinner, reciting halakhic passages or pointing out a phrase that Shakespeare coined in the 17th Century. Most frightening of all, I simply cannot stop singing the anagram song that I made up to remember my legislation and cases! (its just so damn catchy)What on earth do I do? I'm sure this is a common feeling amongst people who are non-contributing members of society, but I just feel so fundamentally purposeless. After the last few years of non-stop study I've almost forgotten how to relax (irrespective of the 14 day cruise I took with my grandmother, in which I basically metamorphosised into an elderly women). Even when I did 'nothing' to try and relax, my brain would betray me and direct a full blown cinematic motion picture detailing all the things i should be doing instead of watching "One Direction Cute and Funny Moments 2012" on my phone in the dark.
Anyways on another note ... I filmed myself during this the month of the HSC so that one day I could look back and reflect on this whole ordeal and hopefully think "PFT! I am a human rights lawyer saving the world by day and Harry Styles' wife getting freaky by night, why was I even stressed?"
I am certain that I'll be thinking something of the sort by this time next year (EVEN without the Harry part) because I ALREADY do that about almost every single thing that I've been stressed about in the past. So if you are willing to sit through it, feel free to witness many mini-breakdowns and the catastrophic shifts between being all WOOO and being all BOOO in layman's terms.
I DO plan on focusing on the more positive aspects of schooling in the future, but I am equally devoted to realism. And not the kind you think you know, like when Jennifer Lawrence talks about burping or falls down one time. But me sitting in my room, with no makeup on, in my Ravenclaw sweater, with dirty hair and eye bags... THAT is relatable.
Remember... think colossally and let your brain wonder among the stars
All the love x
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